As my time at college is close to it’s end, I guess it’s time I got all soppy, emotional and even a little bit excited about the fact that life is moving on and my next adventure awaits me.
So far it hasn’t really dawned on me that after next week there is no more college for me. In fact it probably won’t hit me until I have moved on to University, to tell you the truth it feels unreal it’s a little frightening. Life over the past two weeks has felt like a lie kind of like I’m floating above the earth watching everyone else finish their films and essentially leave college whilst I stay stuck in a loop of endless fear.
Don’t get me wrong I am so excited to leave college and begin the next chapter in my life, but there is a part of me that wants to go back 2 years and do everything differently so I don’t feel so unaccomplished. I haven’t worked as hard as I should have this year and it shows in my work, however I have gained valuable experiences that will stay with me forever. Not to mention that fact I discovered who I really am and what I want to do this year.
What I have to focus on is the future, there is no point dwelling on the things I can never change. As soon as that is distilled in my brain I will feel like myself again and slowly drift back down to earth where I belong and where I can work my hardest to get where I want to be.
Out of this course I have gained many great friends and even a relationship, but nothing could top the feeling of relief I got on my first day when I, for the first time in my life, felt like I fit in. Openly talking about films I love and not being told to shut up, having people around me with the same interests and similar aspirations, showing off my geeky side and being fully accepted for it and many other things that words can’t describe.
Those are the things that have really made these two years special for me and I will never forget any of the people who I have met, I also hope to stay in contact with most of you if possible. For those going to university I wish you the best of luck with your studies and remember to always aim for excellence, to the people moving to new cities I hope you don’t get too homesick and I will miss you. Most of all, however, I wish you all the best of luck with your future career’s, You all have it in you to be one of the greats you just need to really want it and work super hard to obtain that status.
Fairfarren to the people we are now, and hello to the new experiences that will help to shape us as people.
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