The most awkward I ever feel is when I have to say goodbye to someone. It’s almost like saying “I have had a nice time but that is over now, see you next time. ” Now it doesn’t happen all the time, but generally with my friends or when I leave my youth forum it doesn’t feel right, I feel awkward and that feeling lingers for longer than it should. Kind of like I shouldn’t be leaving or saying goodbye. Possibly because I don’t WANT to say goodbye.
There are always a few seconds where the goodbye lingers and I feel like they need something from me or I need to speak – normally saying something like “right, I’ll see you later then.” Which then makes me feel bad because they may have taken it in an insulting way. The truth is, however, that we all feel a little awkward having to say goodbye to people. I say we all do, but I am talking about the people I know – not the people who I have never had to say goodbye to.
Honestly, I think I hate goodbyes because it means leaving someone behind or leaving something I enjoy. Everything has to end eventually, but sometimes I just want good things to last. It’s probably a subconscious thing, my subconscious going “OH WAIT NO YOU’RE ENJOYING YOURSELF…WE DON’T WANT THIS TO END” and I end up feeling awkward and begin waffling. We all get this though, right? The fear of something ending and never getting it back again.
However I always do get them back again in the form of new experiences and meeting new people. Saying goodbye is not the end, you can stay in touch with people, reminisce on the experiences and then create new memories that make you feel even better than the previous ones you had to wave goodbye to. As difficult as that initial goodbye is, a great big hello is waiting right around the corner for you. With every goodbye comes another few experiences. In fact, some of the best experiences I have ever had came right after I had to say goodbye to something huge in my life.
Do you feel like this sometimes?
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