It’s funny how just a little over a month can make you feel completely lost from the world of blogging and result in extremely nervous feelings getting back in to it. Not only has WordPress changed significantly since I last blogged, but I have too – as I am sure we all have…a month is a long time, though it passes quickly – I have grown as an individual, had new experiences, made big decisions, gained wisdom, lived my life as I’m supposed to.
Tonight is one of the first nights I have felt completely at ease in my mind for quite a while because I’ve been very busy recently with photography, drama, Christmas (Booo) and settling in to a new job, somehow writing has taken a back seat since Halloween, possibly even before then, and my blog has been abandoned. Even in ease though, my mind wanders to strange places and I find myself back here, expressing my thoughts and feelings before I explode because I hate doing nothing – it reminds me of all the things I haven’t yet achieved and that I am doing nothing to achieve them.
In saying all that I have been writing, but it’s just been notes to turn in to screenplays or parts of poems to enlarge in to full works. It’s time to buckle down and achieve the greatness I am supposed to have, stop procrastinating and do the things that actually make me quite happy. Let’s face it though, I will probably be saying exactly the same thing again in a few months after achieving a lot and belittling it as I am doing just now to all I have achieved in the past month.
There is a quote from an American comedy show “The Middle” that describes exactly how I am feeling and why I am quite restless to keep working hard. “turns out…all this life crap is just one big distraction from death, but it’s a pretty good one.” Now The Middle certainly isn’t one of the best TV shows out there, but this quote really stuck with me.
So I am back, hopefully quite frequently, as I attempt to regain the writing skills I may have lost during my brief hiatus. It feels good to be back where I belong, writing with out fear.