2017 has been both an amazing and an awful year for me, the pinnacle reason for this is change. Almost everything in my life has changed. I’ve gained a partner, lost old friends, made new friends, moved flats (with my partner), battled with mental illness and so much more. I feel that, on reflection this year, I’m coming out of 2017 as a stronger and less naive person who still has a lot to learn.
The biggest thing I’ve learned is that opening up is important. If others don’t understand why you’re doing something they will assume the worst. Being open and honest with the people around me has helped me with my depression and anxiety because they now have the understanding that I’m not doing certain things on purpose. It’s also been helpful with my colleagues at work because all they saw was someone crying at her desk with no reason. If nothing else I started a discussion about mental health and that’s more valuable than my recovery. Along with this I’ve also learned that sometimes it’s okay to put my own needs before others needs. This was an important step in my recovery, looking after myself.
Looking after myself also resulted in me attempting to learn to cook. This is a goal in progress, but it’s definitely coming along. It helps that my partner like cooking and encourages me to do it a lot more often than I used to. He also helps me when I’m struggling with little things when doing it. However I also started baking, so many cookies means less healthy (lol). Moving in with my partner also meant looking after someone else as well which at times has helped me with taking care of myself.
Accepting myself as who I am has always been difficult for me, but in 2017 I really came in to my own and not only accepted who I was, but embraced it. I’m allowed to be introverted and recharge after a social outing, I’m allowed to want a night in, I’m allowed to listen to music others don’t enjoy. I am my own person and I am proud of it.
It’s clear that I have so much more learning to do and I’m excited to get 2018 started and see what it brings. I’ve already got some exciting things lined up (including a conference and a wedding) and it’s looking to be an eventful year.
What did you learn in 2017?