So I am a bit late to the party on this one, but The Blurt Foundation are running blurtselfcareathon in the month of April to raise awareness of mental health. It’s taken me a couple days (or a week…) to find out about it, but I think it’s a really great idea and since I am definitely not quiet about my struggles with mental health on this blog I thought this would be the best platform to do it.
If you’ve never heard of The Blurt Foundation you should pay a visit to their website because they do so many great things to support people with depressions and other mental illnesses. You can find their website here: https://www.blurtitout.org/
So Day 1: 10 things about me. Where do I even start?
1. I Don’t Have It Together
A lot of people have asked me how I manage to run two blogs, work full time and also balance out my freelance writing whilst maintaining a social life. The truth is I don’t. Most of the time I am watching rubbish on Netflix whilst avoiding something important like hitting my deadlines for articles, writing on my blog, spending time with friends/family etc. The only consistent is my full time job because I have to get up and do that, everything else is still considered a “hobby” or “sociable time”. My friends will tell you I have pretty much abandoned them for months now because “I have an article to write” or “Sorry, I’m just super tired”. Yeah, I’ve got to get better at that.
2. I like Persons, but hate People
Does that make sense? I mean that I like individual people, but put me in a room full of people and I will be hanging around the door until it’s an acceptable time to leave. Don’t get me wrong, I have friendship groups and can handle them because I know them all individually as well. Crowds of people is my worst nightmare, for example. To get to the football in my city a lot of people walk past my street yelling, chanting and generally making a lot of noise. They are only having fun, but it drives me insane and I make sure to stay in on those days and avoid the ruckus.
3. My favourite film (currently) is My Life As A Courgette
Have you seen it though? Because you definitely should. It’s a stop-motion animation feature about a boy who has to go to a children’s home and it’s so sweet and heart wrenching. Not only is stop-motion my favourite type of animation, but when you tell an amazing story with it I can guarantee I will watch it at least 20 times.
4. My favourite food is potatoes
Potatoes are just the best though. You can have them in so many different ways so you will never get bored of them. Also, as a vegetarian, they make a great meat substitute in dishes like curries for me – my particular favourite being Bombay Aloo which is basically potatoes in a spicy tomatoey sauce and it is delicious.
5. I have no idea what I am doing
Yeah, I’m pretty lost. I have no idea what I want in my life or how to get the things I do want. Most of my days are spent being frustrated that, at 22, I don’t have a proper career or a good enough income to buy a house or enough followers on my blog. I know. I am only 22, everyone in my life keeps pointing it out when I’m having my weekly freak out.
6. I am quiet because I am shy, not because I don’t like you
As a child I was always shy and quiet, but as an adult I am outgoing and loud with the people that actually pay attention to me. However, if I don’t know you all that well I will probably be the quiet little mouse in the corner pretending I don’t exist because I am too shy to start the conversation. This is something I am trying to get over for networking purposes.
7. I don’t read that much
Most people in my life will be under the false impression that I read books every single day when in reality I mostly read magazines, newspapers and blog posts. Thing is that reading is mega difficult for me because I am dyslexic so audio books are my saviour in terms of literature.
8. My biggest fear is never being successful
So where most people are scared of being alone, spiders or heights I am terrified that I will never be successful (also scared of heights, but that’s a different story). Why? Because I will have failed myself. It will mean I got lazy and I don’t want that to happen.
9. I was raised an only child with a single parent
Which makes it hard for me to share my space because I am mega independent, or accept help from anyone other than my mother. This is proving difficult living with my partner who has two parents and two brothers, one of which frequently comes to visit and tries to help with stuff around the flat. It drives me insane, but only because I am too independent to accept it and would rather struggle and figure it out on my own than have them just do it for me. I actually think 90% of the reason my partner and I argue is because of this.
10. Writing is my passion
A lot of people still seem to be under the impression that film is my passion, but that’s not true. I’d rather be in a writers room than on a set. although I still have an interest in film production on set, I definitely think I have found my passion in writing and trust me I will continue until I can prove myself as a writer, then I’ll only try harder to outdo myself.